DAILY LIFE: VOL. I

So lately I have been experiencing mixed emotions. I have been flustered, irritated, sad, depressed, angry, confused, happy, successful, amazed, creative, inspired. But one thing I haven't been feeling lately is loved. I have been abandoned by this aspect of life. I want real love, true love not only with friends and family but with someone whom I have the ability to experience life with. I want someone stable, a person, a man who can take me in his arms and protect me. A man who is polite, respectful and adores and admires me., and I to him. I want to share the love, the laughter, the slight pain. But I do not think I will experience this for a while. Because of the time I have been heart, and me putting on a cover of a hard ass did not help. I am human, I am not a mindless robot from the Brave New World. I have emotions, even thought I try to blanket them. [bigsigh]. I do not know what is going on with me but man. My home life stresses me out, school keeps me sane kinda, dance is my rescuer, God is my savior, but who will hold my heart?

Other than stuff---- I am enjoing and learning a lot in my AP Lit class. I am looking foward to Hoopcoming. I cant wait till Prom and Graduation. I perfprm 2m during the boys basketball game at half time with my jazz line! I am waiting anxiously to see if I get called in for an onterview for a jib [beenapplyinhardcore]. I am looking for an apt. to move into in May! future roomies, Shawnna &&Kim! So ya thats th DAILY LIFE VOL. 1. If there is an update on any of these things, welll VOL. II will be commin lol. See ya!

ONE OF MY OBSESSIONS

This photograoh means a ton to me. It is not only a picture of the sky but more of a note from an angel above. You see the day I took this picture was the 6month mark since my boy Josh McDaniel(Carrot Top) passed. I do not know if you can see i t or not but if you look close you can see 32 in the clouds. That was his football jersey number. Also if you look on the three there is a splot if red(or school coor). I have always thought, since i was little that the sky, the sun and clouds were a writing pad for God and our angels above. I still believe that till this day. Whenever I am having a bad day I look up at the sky and snap some pictures to see what God or my angels want to teel me.

NOVEL REVIEW: 1984

George Orwell did an amazing job on this novel. I really thought that this novel was going to bore me to death. It was assigned by my AP Lit teacher, and well I judge a book by its cover...(This wasn't the cover of the book I had--the cover of the one i had is below). This story started off so boring like I was dragging myself, along with a 600 ton weight strapped to my ankles, through each page. But as I kept reading the book became more and more interesting. After i got into the second chapter that's when things started to spice up. But again I will not tell you the story go read it for your self. The theme of this novel was a dystopia, meaning a negative and dark world. This was written after WWII and placed in London. The story is told through Winston's eyes. Winston is a party member who just does not agree with this "Big Brother" and the Party ideals , rules and restrictions. He consumes internal conflict while dealing with the external conflicts of the society. He isnt able to love because he thinks of women as spies, who will betray him. I do recommend you read this novel it can possibly be life changing or give you a slightly new way to look at life. It deals with recession, communism, betrayal, death, and hopelessness. The end is also surprising.

MOVIE REVIEW: GRAN TORINO

NOW THIS FILM DESERVES ALL CAPS. I PEEPED THIS FILM JANUARY 10TH! MAN THIS MOVIE WAS HUMOROUS, ACTION PACKED, AND ALSO VERY LIFE CHANGING IN MY EYES. CLINT EASTWOOD, I BELIEVE WAS THE BEST FIT TI PLAY "WALT". THE CAST FOR THIS MOVIE WAS WELL THOUGHT OUT AND PICKED. I ACTUALLY LEARNED SOMETHING FROM THIS MOVIE. WITHOUT FORGIVING YOURSELF AND ALLOWING GOD TO FORGIVE YOU, YOU WILL NOT HAVE THE ABILITY TO LIVE IN PEACE. I SUPER RECOMMEND YOU SEE THIS FILM.

MOVIE REVIEW: UNBORN

So I went to the theater on Friday, January 9th, and I peeped the new movie unborn. I recommend you see this movie. Me being the analytical observer I am (because of myAP lit teacher), I began to analyze the movie from the beginning. Unborn the title its self gives you an idea of something being hidden within and has yet to come out, to be born. Well I will not tell you the movie you should see it yourself. This movie consumed horror, action, thrills, and a bit of love, for you sapps. There is also some freakin mind bending, head twisting, neck breaking action as well. A PG-13 movie well done.

OPRAH TONIGHT! AMAZING

These two ministers said that being gay is a gift from God

That being gay is a devine act from God

Spiritually this is how God wanted you to be. You just dont happen to be gay, God wanted you to be gay...

This honestly is the best defenition of homosexuality I have heard. They say that you are that way because God has a plan for you to deliver through your own beliefs.

If you didnt watch the show tonight watch it on you tube please.

Tell me what you think....

BROMANCE--HOMO

NOW THESE TV SHOWS ARE BECOMING MORE PATHETIC EVERY YEAR! PARIS HILTON SEARCHING FOR A BFF ON TV AND NOW BRODY FROM THE HILLS HAS THIS BROMANCE SHOW...HMMM MAN IDK IF YOU HAVE TO FIND LOVE OR FRIENDS ON TV YOU ARE PRETTY PATHETIC. ITS A WAY TO GET DOUGH BUT DAMN THIS SHOW BROMANCE I ONLY PEEPED THE FIRST 10 MINUTES.... SUPER HOMO! ELIMENATION IN A HOT TUB FULL OF GUYS... NAAAH CHILL! HAHAHA WELL THATS MY INPUT. THIS IS THE FIRST POST OF THE YEAR 2009 HAHAHA GOOD TOPIC RIGHT?