So lately I have been experiencing mixed emotions. I have been flustered, irritated, sad, depressed, angry, confused, happy, successful, amazed, creative, inspired. But one thing I haven't been feeling lately is loved. I have been abandoned by this aspect of life. I want real love, true love not only with friends and family but with someone whom I have the ability to experience life with. I want someone stable, a person, a man who can take me in his arms and protect me. A man who is polite, respectful and adores and admires me., and I to him. I want to share the love, the laughter, the slight pain. But I do not think I will experience this for a while. Because of the time I have been heart, and me putting on a cover of a hard ass did not help. I am human, I am not a mindless robot from the Brave New World. I have emotions, even thought I try to blanket them. [bigsigh]. I do not know what is going on with me but man. My home life stresses me out, school keeps me sane kinda, dance is my rescuer, God is my savior, but who will hold my heart?
Other than stuff---- I am enjoing and learning a lot in my AP Lit class. I am looking foward to Hoopcoming. I cant wait till Prom and Graduation. I perfprm 2m during the boys basketball game at half time with my jazz line! I am waiting anxiously to see if I get called in for an onterview for a jib [beenapplyinhardcore]. I am looking for an apt. to move into in May! future roomies, Shawnna &&Kim! So ya thats th DAILY LIFE VOL. 1. If there is an update on any of these things, welll VOL. II will be commin lol. See ya!
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