POEM OF THE DAY: SICKNESS

As I sit I wonder
Looking at what used to be
Attempting to figure out if you page songs are for me
Thinking about what could have been
Remembering your last words to me
Pondering on what you meant
You said things to me no one else never did
But when things became a little complex
It seemed as if it all just faded away
How can a love not be strong enough
Why when we need someone the most we push them away
I question the love you claim consumes you
If it was as authentic, then why is it that you are indulged in another
I cannot come to hate you
I cannot come to despise you
I can come to you and speak the truth
You cut me deep because you were not ready
You blind folded me
Told me to trust you
Then pushed me off a burning building
Believing that if you pushed me away everything would be solved
Thinking that if you could sacrifice my heart by pushing me away now
Well that may have been so
But as I stand, I stand with a different attitude towards you
As I sit I wonder
Looking at what used to be
Attempting to figure out if your page songs are meant for me
Thinking about what could have been
Remembering your last words to me
Pondering on what you meant
You said things to me no one else never did
But when things became a little complex
It seemed as if it all just faded away
How can a love not be strong enough
Why when we need someone the most we push them away
I question the love you claim consumes you
I look back, my stomach drops as my heart burns
An illness that I can make go away for that moment with a temporary medicine
Yet this illness shall never go away until a universal treatment is discovered